Saturday, November 24, 2012

Waiting to Break?

I'm trying not to be.
But I'm worried.

I don't know if I can do it: Primary President, new mother battling hormones, porn addict husband, mommy to two, PASG facilitator...

Sometimes I wish people KNEW, you know?  I wish people knew what was going on so they understood why I get frazzled easily or why I forget things or why I cry for "no good reason."
Could I handle a new baby and my calling?  I think so.
Can I handle my calling, a new baby, AND then all this addiction stuff?  It looks like I'm going to.

I know from past experiences that the Lord will bless me if I'm willing to get down in the dirt of it all -get my hands dirty, so to speak.  He will not leave me helpless.

Because even if other people don't KNOW... HE knows.  He knows very well.
He knows.

1 comment:

  1. You have a lot going on, even without people knowing about the addiction side of things. I think ANYONE would be frazzled with two young kids, pregnancy/new baby, and your calling. I am sure that God will either send people to help buoy you up, even in little ways or find some other way to make things work out. I just hope you give YOURSELF a break and realize your own limits too! Hang in there Alicia!