Becoming aware of JUST HOW MUCH I've let fear rule my life has been overwhelming.
I work out because I'm afraid of gaining weight.
I'm afraid if I gain weight, my husband won't love me.
I'm afraid if my husband doesn't love me, he will reject me.
Fear of rejection.
Rejection from him, from my own self, from others.
I'm afraid to let the kids take too many risks.
I'm afraid to be 100% honest with my husband about my feelings because it might upset him.
I'm afraid he'll lose his temper.
My chest is tight for most of the day.
I'm afraid of what others think of me.
I'm afraid I'll wreck the car because my vision is terrible.
I'm afraid I'll be responsible for their death somehow.
I'm afraid I'll be responsible for their choices later in life.
I'm afraid of letting the people I love down.
I'm afraid I'm letting fear keep me from my dreams.
Did you hear that? I'm AFRAID of FEAR.
Isn't there a word out there for that? There's some kind of phobia name for that. I know there is.
I try to keep my distance from contagious people, from angry people, from dominant-personality people.
I'm starting to let go of many of these fears, and I'm grateful for awareness. I could have gone my entire life trapped and bound by fear, never fully LIVING.
My wonderful counselor said I need to employ one of those awesome therapy acronyms.
Aware: become aware of the fear
Demystify the fear
I am aware that I am very afraid.
As far as Demystification?