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I'm finally "back."
My baby is almost 8 weeks old, and regular life is swirling around me. I'm "back" to my calling. I'm "back" to teaching piano lessons.
And with everything going on, I've dropped the ball on a few things, most of them relating to my kiddos (she didn't NEED that cavity filled right away, right?).
I feel badly about it.
And the past three nights, I've dreamed about missing recovery meetings (that I facilitate), forgetting about ward counsel, being extremely late for church because I can't physically move as fast as I need to, missing doctor appointments... and last night I dreamed that I got the wrong date for the fireside Andrew is coming to put on and I missed it.
I wake up feeling defeated, like I haven't even put my toes on the ground and I've already messed up. It's a super fun feeling.
Anyway, this morning I was so happy to wake up because if I'm going to drop the ball anywhere I DO NOT want it to be on Andrew's fireside. It's going to be a little bit of a drive to get there, and I need to get a sitter for my older kids (my parents know about our situation, so I can ask them but it's never terribly comfy to bring up porn addiction with anyone that isn't, well, People Like You)... but it's definitely an event I refuse to drop the ball on.
Here's to one more day of adjusting "back" to real life... it's getting easier with each passing day.
Is Andrew speaking?? When and where is that?? I would be greatly interested. I've emailed him before and I love his blog.
ReplyDeleteWarrior, yes! I'm super excited! What's your email address? I can send you the info, and if you're anywhere close you can come!
DeleteAlicia! You are amazing! I don't know how you do it all. You have got a lot on your plate!
ReplyDeleteI don't do it all... you should see my house right now. And we may or may not have eaten snow ice cream for breakfast, haha.
DeleteI always try to remind myself it takes 2 months after a baby, and after 2 months almost magically things start falling back into ----- well, not their old place usually, but into their new place. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteHaha -my grandma told me, "If you can survive the first three months, you're going to make it." Those were the best words of advice! They've kept me so calm.
DeleteGrandmas are awesome.
My baby will be two month tomorrow and yes, things are falling back into place. I just wish my midsection would follow suit :)